Grown up in a small village, Kopisan Gopeng, Left the village at the age of 20 years old. I find life was not challenging to stay in that village. More and more selfish people, fight and disunity in occur almost everyday among the community. There are people waiting to see others to collapse. Fight and clash among the family and with immediate neighbor none stop took place. Misunderstanding and curse goes on and on. Many were too busy gossiping with almost no progress. Somehow there are nice to people from few rows or a distance from them. There is a beauty in it; as they walk past their friend’s house, they will acknowledge by calling they name and ask what they are doing. Example “ Lakshimy, Are you washing clothes?” But actually he/she sees Lakshimy washing clothes. It one way to greet the people they meet around as past by. It is also a message to tell them; Look I am still around.
The next beauty thing in the village which is wonderful or quiets is the temple. The temple doesn’t have a priest for prayers at the time. I spent most of the time in the temple and even enter the main Sanctum sanctorum “garbhagriha” (only priest allowed) inside the shrine where the main deity (Amman) sat. I didn’t know any mantras but I bath her, dress and feed her. Later clean the temple around.
Many elder friends in the village had left for better career. I was not happy with surrounding; I have to leave the village for betterment. I was looking for answer which was not there at all. Deep inside was spiritual and instinctive long looking for a solution and still HAS NOT found the answer and many NOT able to answer me. At times I got slight clue, but does not satisfied. I begin to hold to the rope, the end of the rope it just disappears with not ending.
I walk a distance, I was not able to get any solution, maybe I should continue. So i decided to take a career life in TV3, It was almost zero in everything and start from nothing. My close friends were Malay, and most of them were my house mates. As time goes everyone get married the group begin to smaller. After 12 years in TV3, I move to ASTRO with better career and position. A lot of training, travelling, with a lot of back stabbing in Astro, and finally one they give VSS to few staff telling them to leave. That moment was so tough to accept. I was jobless
Along the way, I would like to say sorry to few people in my life who were very close to me, I to got leave you all because of the reality and situation. It really hurt them, but I got no choice.I also have to drop some people just because of the lie they made, so defensive and justify mistakes made. I hate people who lie again and again.
Why don’t be overwhelmed with guilt and regret, analyze how you can learn from them.
Some just don't understand and don’t apologize just because out of embarrassment or unwillingness or Ego.
The type of people that i met in my life,
Liars, some many lies around me. This really piss me off.
Lie
People around me lie and lie just to justify something not truthfully.
I could feel and know that you are a liar.
You can cover your act with words with lie but the truth remain.
Your lie makes me does things and move much distance away.
The next person are:
I don't know why some get anger, jealous with so much of frustration in the task of charity I does.
How can it be by giving a little happiness to others makes others unhappy,
I got many friends with Friendship on his lips, hatred at heart.
Some charity work is in my blog http://www.mynadi2009.blogspot.com/
What I appeal is your small change make BIG Changes
"Karumbu Enekeethan Vareeroda Pudagatha Samuthayam"
Just because the Sugarcane plant is sweet, the society would want to uproot it.
A lot of my work has to do with not allowing my characters to have an ego on my way I just doesn't want my ego throw me up. How can someone claim credit for task of others
As the skin of a snake is sloughed onto an Anthill, so does the mortal body fall; but The Self, freed from the body, merges in Brahman, infinite life, eternal light. - Brihadaranyaka Upanishad
We trapped by Racism, jealousy, religious bigotry, hated and suspicion.
We are not prepared to build bridges but already build walls around us
Why?
Finally we are born as human beings,
If we miss this opportunity,
We revolve in the cycle of birth and death.
Delve into your own soul now;
Don't just indulge in easy living
Live just the world as though it did not exist
And chant the word of God all the time.
The Lord stands at the door of His devotee's house
And is always ready to protect him
When you change your thinking you change beliefs
When you change your beliefs you change expectations
When you change your expectations you change attitude
When you change your attitude you change behaviour
When you change your behaviour you change performance
When you change your performance you change life..
Let us change for good
Remember the late Michael Jackson's " Man in the Mirror song"
A part of the chorus goes like this - " if you wanna the world a better place take a look at yourself then make a change
REVENGE
In my life, I have changed.. but there are FEW people owe me a lot. they will pay an expensive deed.
Revenge is revenge.. Retaliation for offence and injury.
Your pain will go deeper, your suffering till next life
I will get revenge there is nothing that can stop me showing no mercey, only demise
I've lost what belong to me, I won't give up
My words and Act will cut you so deep that you die slow and painfuly
exactly and your heart will finally be mine when I rip it from your chest
only this time I promise I won't be as kind as before
I've not lost my mind you'll lose your life its been the longest time
the pain will finally end I want too see you been cut so deep in pain
that you die slow and painfuly 100 times the pain you both gave me
You see bleeding and so the pain will last longer, it will not heal
My Curse cut you so deep and bleeding with pain
(The other Three who ploted the game and cause me the pain and hurt ... just watch out, you can't run away)
If you see someone without Smile
Give them One of Yours!!
Handsome Man ( I know you will not say that)
At 12 midnight : A Snake in my House Compound ( Bangsar)
I caught the Snake, it is back to you.
I was told that people around me are Snake,
A Pandyan king announced a prize of one thousand gold coins for anyone who could compose the best poem according to the highest standards of literary composition prevailing at that time. A poor poet Dharmi prayed to Lord Shiva, who in turn gave him a poem to be taken to the Pandyan king. When the poem was read before the king, the court poet Nakkeeran found fault with a particular line in that poem. This saddened the poor poet Dharmi because it was an insult to Lord Shiva. Consequently Lord Shiva himself came and appeared and supported the correctness of Dharmi’s thought and diction.
Nakeeran confront Lord Siva and demand explaination on content and essence of the written poem. Nakeeran still do not accept the answer given by Lord Siva and he find a contradiction to the nature of a logic. But Nakkeeran maintained his stand. Lord Shiva threatened to annihilate Nakkeeran by opening his third eye, but Nakkeeran firmly asserted that a mistake was a mistake, even if it was committed by the Lord. Eventually, he suffered the consequence of his arrogance and got rid of his incurable ailment after undertaking a pilgrimage to Mount Kailasa. Finally Nakeeran accept the poem given and the King Shenbaga Pandian reward Dharmi.T . The purpose is bring new revolution and Dharmi start writing Dharma.
But My arguement and stand is that Nakeeran was Wrong, he should not accept the answer even he was reform back, His decision should be final and stick to his values no matter even the Lord Confront you. Given a contradiction statement that “One cannot say of something that it is and that it is not in the same respect and at the same time.” and "No one can believe that the same thing can (at the same time) be and not be.”
Please.. Don't Interpret my statement your way (25th Oct 2010)
Φ is True iff Φ is False.
(Φ & Ψ) is True iff Φ is True and Ψ is True.
Many out there Interpreting my statement wrongly. Exposing and giving a wrong meaning.
Do you know Provocation is wrong in human realtion, Your provocation is defense by excuse or exculpation alleging to statement made or act I does
What's the Secret of Success?
"Takes pain," said the window.
"Keep cool," said the ice.
"Drive hard," said the hammer.
"Be up to date," said the calender.
"Never be led," said the pencil.
"Be sharp," said the knife.
"Make light around you," said the fire.
"Stick to it," said the glue.
"Be bright," said the lamp.
Vedanta does not show that this world is vain and does not exist, but it says, “Understand what this world is, so that it may not hurt you..” The theme of the Vedanta is to see the Lord in everything, to see things in their real nature, not as they appear to be.
The Vedanta teaches men to have faith in themselves first. As certain religions of the world say that a man who does not believe in a Personal God outside of himself is an atheist, so the Vedanta says, a man who does not believe in himself is an atheist. Not believing in the glory of our own soul is what the Vedanta calls atheism. . . .There is neither man nor woman or child, nor difference of race or sex, nor anything that stands as a bar to the realization of the ideal, because Vedanta shows that it is realized already, it is already there.
saha nav avatu, saha nau bhunaktu, saha viryam karavavahi: tejasvi nav adhitam astu: ma vidvisavahai; aum santih, santih, santih - May He protect us both; may He be pleased with us both; may we work together with vigor; may our study make us illumined; may there be no dislike between us. Aum, peace, peace, peace
Om Shreem Om Hreem Shreem Hreem
Kleem Shreem Kleem Vitteswaraay Namaha
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http://giriraajan.blogspot.com/2009/01/om-sivoham-naan-kadavul-translation.html
Live http://www.shrisaibabasansthan.org/shirdilivedarshan1.htm
http://www.somnath.org/live-darshan.aspx
http://www.shree-rudram.com/
Politic
Many thinsg were left unsaid
Our Government is form ruling elite that is why it not "kerakyatan" but "kerajaan" ; the very word "kerajaan" (government) is a distortiobn of "Raja"
Change the colonial mentality is with us , which is why we are reluctant to discuss these issues,
-Many Malays may feel threatened in debate on democracy which was why some UMNO leaders played the racial cards
-If all Malays get their rights then it's okay, but it is only a few who get the privileges, The rich get richer and the poor get poorer,
- The ruling party is using racial politics to divide and rule while the opposition parties are suspicious of each others.
- This is not ceramah politik but cerita politik.
- It is not UMNO which is fendalistic or Racist , but individuals who are racist as well as the different business association and the different schools for different races
_ The ruling elite (BN) can control the rakyat because they place us in boxes it is embedded in us from the time we are small. The differentiation was brought about by British who used race for economic purpose and we are still in those boxes
